Loves: Pat, Kayden, pink, stars, purses, designer clothing, monkeys, care bears, wisers deluxe, summer, cosmo, sex in the city, babies, chocolate, square dishes, rubber bracelets, candles, nail polish
Hates: busy signals, stop signs, winter, junkies, liars,
Zodiac: Libra (09/30/84)
Buddies:
patw-21
sistercookie
fergie
oursecrets
naomiw21
blueskiess
kaydenjames
Moving On
2004-09-18 @ 1:40 a.m. .
Its time to grow up and be how I’ve wanted to be. But it doesn’t seem that easy to me, I need a future because all i'm seeing is the end. The way i am going is getting me no where. Motivation is lacking, Someone push to so I can start moving.
being here is so confusing. It’s like a nightmare. Constant drama is overwhelming. Unnecessary confrontations. Children screaming. I’m empty, always hiding, I cant even call it home
I miss my family, and who I used to be. I miss all of the people that have moved away from me. Because in my heart I know that I’m never going to see them ever again. I know before I wasn’t happy but maybe I just took things for granted, because now it really feels like I have nothing. 8 boxes in a corner. Half not even mine. At least I have half a cat that loves me. I’m scared of loneness, I don’t think I could have ever done this on my own. It’s time to change. And I know I can’t do that on my own. I need help. Please because this life style is out of control and too stressful. I know that it could be way better than this. I’m moving on.
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