Loves: Pat, Kayden, pink, stars, purses, designer clothing, monkeys, care bears, wisers deluxe, summer, cosmo, sex in the city, babies, chocolate, square dishes, rubber bracelets, candles, nail polish
Hates: busy signals, stop signs, winter, junkies, liars,
Zodiac: Libra (09/30/84)
Buddies:
patw-21
sistercookie
fergie
oursecrets
naomiw21
blueskiess
kaydenjames
Empty
2004-09-02 @ 4:12 p.m. .
If I could change I would, Take back the pain I would. Trace every wrong move I made I would. If I could stand up and take the blame I would, If i could take all the shame to the grave I would. It’s easier to RUN! Replacing all this pain with something more.
Looking back at all things I had. Wondering what went wrong? I pretend everything is what I want it to be. But I can’t pretend this is the way they will stay. Why is no one listening to anything that I say. I could be standing here screaming. And they would just turn away. I WONT BE IGNORED!!!!!
I wish that all the good would make the bad fade away. The last 6 month have been twisted and spun, isn’t this the time I should be out having fun? But thing are never the way they should be. People always turn their backs on me. Fuck, that bitch that screwed you over. Did you ever really think that you and her were meant to be? No one is perfect, I can’t pretend I’m how you want me to be.
Everything is cold. Freezing. Emptiness is overwhelming, not knowing myself because I’ve always put others first. Ouch that must hurt. All the people in my life I love with all my heart. So much effort put in and what have I got ???
Bodies sticky from diving in a pool of electric jello shots.
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